I'm going to try something different and a little scary for me... publicize an important part of my life on the internet. You just laughed, didn't you? I know you did. Because you just thought "Wait, aren't you the girl that clogs up my newsfeed wit status updates and pictures every day?" Yes. Yes, I am. But, rarily, if ever, do I air out my dirty laundry or get too personal because, really, somethings just aren't meant to be made public. Anyway, I digress.
I'm going to publicly venture into something that I have been struggling with for years, along with, umm... thousands of people and that is weightloss. Ooooh boy... that overhyped, overused word! And as I said, talking details about my weight struggles and bad health habits is quite frightening and embarassing for me, but I've come to the end of my rope of great ideas and am hoping that making the process more public will give me some kind of accountability. Hopefully.
Oh, hell, why not?
So, if you've decided that you are sick of hearing about people's "weightloss journeys" and the like, then no hard feelings, and I suggest that you exit now cause here goes...
Ok, I'm just going to start with the facts. I am 25 years old and weigh 180 lbs. Holy shit, I can't believe I just put that out there. Kind of feels freeing, actually. I'm obviously overweight. Last time I checked my BMI, I believe it was 30. That is JUST hitting the obese range. OBESE. Do I look obese to you? I don't think so. Thankgod. But, technically, I am. Now, I don't look to much into that or I would slit my wrists. But, let's face it. It's not healthy in the slightest bit.
Now, there are numerous reasons I have struggled with weight since I was a little girl, and I will explore all of those as I go on with this blog. But, let's just say, the lightest weight I remember being is 150 lbs... in 5th grade. Yeah, you read correctly. So, for now, I'm just going to list out some of my health goals for 2012, and I'll talk to you all later.
Current Weight: 180
Ultimate Goal Weight: 145-150
Final Goal date: August 16th
Goal BMI: 25 (this is still considered 'overweight', but I have alot of muscle mass, so it will probably be very difficult for me to get under that)
Some other important goals... I will delve into these more as I blog on...
- where a bikini, and feel hot in it
-NO MORE CHUB RUB, you know, when your thighs rub together and makes it impossibly uncomfortable to wear shorts
- run a marathon
- become a fitness trainer/teacher of SOME kind
- become a better and more agile dancer
-train my body to crave healthy foods, rather than foods that will eventually kill me
- greatly reduce the symptoms of PCOS (a very integral part of my struggles that I will go into more detail about later)
I am not looking to become the ideal of fitness and beauty. I do not think that I will transform into a cover photo from Maxim. I already think I am a beautiful person, inside and out. But, like most women, I have my insecurities and this is a huge one. And it's time for me to take control of my own life and my own body. It's time to OWN myself and my mistakes. So, let's do this thing.
